I really want to drop like 15 pounds by like next weekend. I have a 5K with the family coming up and I would like to be closer to my lowest weight…I want to say I lost ___ pounds! I know I shouldn’t seek complements but I feel as though they haven’t even noticed. I recently as in yesterday started the Zombies run 5k training app. It was fun and I hope to power house through it and lose a lot of weight. I have also got back on Atkins diet with hopes of dropping 8-10 pounds a week like the last time I tried it. If I could drop 10 pounds this week and even just 5 the next I would weigh…216 which would be only 5 pounds away from my lowest adult weight! I know I am asking a lot. I would be happy just to lose 5 pounds but I want more. I want to be to that weight. I want to go down a jean size. I am still wearing the same jeans from my 283 weight?! My mom says its because I was probably wearing my jeans way to tight. But my friend who is nearly the same build and same height is at the same weight as well and recently downgraded to a size 18. Where is my size 18?! I couldn’t even get into the ones my mom has given me. I am working out again though so hopefully between eating right and exercising the weight will just drop off plus I will be in better shape for this 5K Color run in Lincoln, NE on the 19th of October. If any of my followers are going to be there please shoot me a message, I would love to meet you guys and since I don’t travel much this is pretty much my only opportunity. I didn’t go to school today due to a headache but as I start to feel better I feel like going out and doing mission 1 today on my zombies run app. Yesterdays run didn’t feel to horrible. I couldn’t run for very long but I ended up doing like 2 miles in 34 minutes so that’s not bad for having been a junk eating sloth this last week. I get down on myself especially when I am having this secret battle against my friend to lose weight. Every time she reaches a goal before me I fell worse because I didn’t reach it before her and I have been exercising and she hasn’t and I had my surgery a whole month before her. Crazy how our bodies are. I should be happy with the loss I have had but I am weight loss hungry…I want more…plus I really want to be below 200 lol. Anywho that’s enough rambling for now. Check in later. :)
I have got to get back on track again this week. Only 33 pound until my victory dance…well the first segment anyway lol.
232.2…HELL YEAH 50.8 POUNDS DOWN SINCE SURGERY!! Woot Woot…I am almost out of the 230’s!!
Made fried chicken (Atkins type recipe) it was so good… Until I snuck one more piece and got stuck on it. Luckily only lasted a few minutes as I hovered over the toilet. No food came up but it slithered down. Hoping I lose more weight again tomorrow.
What am I doing right now? I am waiting patiently to go bike riding. I am so excited today. I am at 234.2!!! That’s right folks 8 pounds in 1 week! I am so excited. Every day I am getting closer to my goal of being 199 by Christmas!! If it comes sooner I would be even more stoked. That would give me time to write my Christmas brag letters and Get pictures taken much sooner so my letters could go out. No I wouldn’t brag about my weight …In my family we just brag about all other aspects of our life lol. Such a silly goal but I can tell already my body will feel great to be down so many pounds…my joints will probably come up with their own theme song just to express how good they fill! lol Hope everyones day is going just as well. TTYL!
Weighed in today at 236.6. I am going to make my 40 pound goal yet. Just got to keep it up!! I CAN do this, I CAN DO this, I CAN DO THIS!!
Weigh in Friday : 237.6!!! Yay thank you exercise, new fill, and Atkins! Yes!!! I’m going to lose that 40 by December… I got this!
A dream like any other…
There I am In front of a delicious fajita about to dig in when I realize I have already eaten my carbs for the day… My stomach rumbles and nearly forces my hand to reach for it. I’m so conflicted… My mind is screaming, “no!” But my stomach is saying, “eat that sh**!” I’m panicking, I don’t know what to do… I then begin to pick away at the details of this “situation”… People that I know don’t live here, places that are not around here… Could it be I’m dreaming? The food looks so good, like a magazine picture of food. This most certainty is a dream… Suddenly my Come on Eileen starts playing… It grows louder and louder until I am back to reality…545am… Time to get up and start work… Glad it was just a dream… I’m afraid I would have caved if I had to be there much longer… My version of a nightmare=failing on your lifestyle change…*sigh thank goodness it was just a dream.
Tonight’s Dinner - Tilapia & Baked Cauliflower.
Tomorrows Lunch- Tilapia with Diced tomatoes w/green chilies.
Yummy Food. Following Atkins Diet….More info to come…
As you can probably tell by the title it is a tough week emotionally for me. I am not sure if it is residual hormones from shark week or what but ME NO LIKEY! My caring nature has put me in a tough spot and I find myself caring for a friend of mine. Trying to be her rock, all the while tearing up on the edge of tears. My eyes kept welling up and threatening to spill over. Stay strong, Stay strong. I then began to look back into my life. Here I am 23 years old, no best friends, no friends, nothing. Yes I have my boyfriend and boy is he amazing. I would love to be his wife but other than him I have no one in this strange town. Let me set a few things straight I do have friends and I have some very good BEST Friends…but they are not local. They are hours and states away. I want someone near me. Someone I can run to and have girl nights with. I don’t like to put everything on my boyfriend. I need those girl friends that you talk about shark week with and our future weddings or babies or whatever we want. Anywho, as I found myself looking back I remembered when I had been getting physically fit and how good I felt about my body. Verses now when I avoid full length mirrors, take photos of my face, and never mention my weight out loud. I think about how I have self sabotaged myself as of late. Eating things I know I shouldn’t, Not exercising, slacking on homework. I want to try, I really do…but I am so tired. I just want to close my eyes and sleep for awhile. Is that too much to ask? Instead I sit here at work writing to whomsoever is wiling to read. I worked out twice this week with a person who I can see becoming very good friends with but the problem being is this town is not strange for her like it is for me. She has grown up around the area and already has her friends. Another one of my friends from school has offered to start working out with us as well…She is such a busy person between work, family, and school I know she will never be the one I run over too to have a mini girls night. I am also working on my drinking problem…not alcohol but water. Boy do I hate water. I know its good for me but its just so plain. I have been trying to stay away from soda and been doing pretty good these past few days. I went for my fill yesterday and didn’t get anything. The doctor I seen has only seen me one other time. The time that she had to take all of my fill out for my gallbladder attacks. She poked me twice. The second time she hit my muscle and I yelped. Yep Yelped. So she said she would try to get my normal nurse to do it sometime. So now its a waiting game. hopefully they can get me in next week. Meanwhile I am hungry and sore. I am going to try and be more positive. I went to church for the first time in over a year last night, to support my friend but I also wonder if it was a God Wink…Guess we shall see… that ends Part 1 of the Puddle of My Life..
As of midnight I’m on liquids for 24-48 hours to restart my eating healthy. Wish shark week would be done with already. Ugh! I’m like 3 sizes bigger I’m so bloated.
Well on Tuesday evening I start my 48 hours of Clear liquids. Then I will get back on track with eating 4oz twice a day. I also plan to get a fill this week if I can get in. On top of that Shark Week has kicked in…grumble grumble…anyone else get cravings for pickles during that time of the month or is that just my thing? lol. I have been busy between school and work. I already feel worn out and we are only going onto week 3 of school! geez. I think my financial situation is a lot of my problems. Stress just makes me sleep like crap. I did pick up some melatonin pills yesterday and took it and seemed to sleep pretty well other than the few times I woke up for no apparent reason. Anywho back to the special diet. I think I need to clean my body out and start fresh so that’s why the 48 hours of clear liquids. I need to drop 40 pounds ASAP. Also I am going to start working out with some CJ buddy’s here soon. So that is exciting. Time to get fit and healthy again. I have been relying on my band too much and not supporting my band like I should. Right now is especially hard since I want to eat anything and everything…dang hormones! Anywho Hope everyone elses losses are going well. Continue on in your fitness Journey.
What am I doing? I am awake… Nervous for tomorrow, I have tried to sleep but ended up taking a hot shower and some Benadryl which hasn’t kicked in yet. I’m only 40 pounds away from my first big goal…. Why not push myself and get their quicker… This is the question that will haunt my sleep tonight. Good night lovelies….
And I lost weight!! I am officially out of the 240’s!!!
Today’s weight 239.4!!! Getting closer to my first mini goal… So happy.
I weighed in today since I didn’t like yesterday’s weight lol.
LAst week: 240.6
Today’s weight: 240.0! Yay! Not a gain!!
Not a huge loss but better than nothing!
On my way out of state to go see the PRCA Rodeo in South Dakota. Going to eat and drink like crap but I will get on track Monday and get a fill this next week. I think 4.5ccs isn’t helping me. I need more of a fill. So back to the needle next week. Hope everyone has a good weekend.